I have not posted a lot being in China. Merely because I have gone through so many changes in 52 different ways. Being in China has taken me so far out of my element, sometimes I cannot even put it into words what I have gone through!
I never imagined China to begin with, because of the language. Teaching English at a beautiful kindergarten, with beautiful kids, I do seem to be able to ‘absorb’ words and things even here.
My attention to detail still amazes me, believing in Saints, Signs and Signals and that God is talking to us always. I’ve come to a place where I am understanding this tonal language even though I can never speak it – the kids show me, I can understand it.
But, I came here to learn to teach so I can do it online. I came to pay off my credit card (done) and save up to be able to purchase cheap real estate in Greece (not done). Why Greece?
Maybe past lives, but I have always been drawn to Greece, Crete and Egypt, and that whole entire area. I felt such peace and family while spending almost three months in Israel.
Here in China, everything has been so foreign to me, and unfamiliar but I love diversity and change. But my ultimate goals of a vlog on travel and cooking do not mesh here. Greece has the best food supply and bans GMO’s, so that is why my eye has always been there.
I thought to stay here one more year, to continue to save money for Greece. But shit happens. Someone so incredibly dear to me in my family has had health issues for the last decade and a half. I came fearing that something might happen to him while I was gone, and my chance to see him was the last time before leaving. And 2020 provided more issues, and a huge loss, and now it has elevated even more to a situation I was afraid of.
I don’t think another year here will be possible, because my family is much more important. I go through such a mental dumping process at the end of each year, and I am praying to God for guidance and the answers.
I will miss the people I have met here profusely, but I never intended to stay longer than I have already planned. But, I never expected a worldwide pandemic to break out to put life on hold. I’ve drunk too much, smoked too much, and eaten too much. Time to get life back on track.
What I am trying to say here, albeit quite without life or character in this writing, is that I am done. I am craving change and wish to move on. Is this in store for me? Only time and God will tell!
We shall see when summer comes, my contract ends, and if I can leave. I have already had a new online objective/change come my way I am pursuing that seems viable. I will work diligently on all fronts to prepare to jump and seek new pastures.